Me, or the other Me.....

Well, here I am writing again and I know its been a very long time since last post, but I've been on a roller coaster ride between then and now, as I'm sure it has been with the rest of everyone else. You can also say a lot has changed as well. One thing is that Ive been coming across a lot of multi-personality carrying people. And I don't mean like the actual diagnosis (although it probably still the case) but what I guess you can associate with people who just want to please everybody.

Like if Larry wants to go see a movie hes been waiting to see for a long time, and comes across the opportunity to see it with two different people. Person A. that watches the movie with him sees certain situations in the film as being pretty entertaining and hilarious due to actual personal experiences. Larry actually wanted to cry when witnessed to these parts of the film. Plus the film portrayal of these moments was very dramatic. Well, Larry holds back his true emotions and he even tries to laugh along with person A. Thus compromising his true self in nature.

When Larry saw the same film with person B., he noticed that there was absolutely no emotion on person B.'s face. Not sadness, compassion. Maybe a couple of smiles here and there but that is all. And though, realistically, there is nothing wrong with that, once again Larry compromised his true emotions he felt from the movie, and acted just as person B. acted.

Now imagine Larry taking on this behavior with everything else in his life. No matter what the cause or reason is, he takes this behavior on with almost any social situation. Most people would call this "not being real". But what if this behavior is actually what he gives more of a priority to? What if he decides to live his life like this and believes this is used to his advantage? Always taking a side, but never taking a side. Speaking up about things but yet being quiet when something should be said. Acting on things that didn't happen but when things do happen, not moving a muscle. Trying to please, impress, entertain, befriend everyone, but not really having your own position to stand on. Not taking sides can be a great thing, but can also be bad as well as most of you probably know by experience. I sure do.

To be cool and to have a lot to offer seems to be the mainstream, as it has been for a very long time, but when does it start to take a toll? When are main soul motivators and principles disappear? When will be the last day when any of us meet someone who is actually the person they portray themselves, physically and verbally? When can we really not be worried about the other side of the wall? When people say that they don't want to hear everything someone else has to say, or don't want to know everything that goes through someones mind, there is a reason for that. Fear. Fear that they might see, or hear something they don't want to. Will the opposite day ever come? I am not perfect, I am not calling positives or negatives, but merely pointing out something that really is ignored or recognized but not acknowledged........